The   taste   of   " Happiness"

my birthday is just one step far from  , unlike last year I'm not really for it (How strange ) .

if you ask me whether i have any plans for my b'day ?     " YEA "⧬

With my Personalised self made exquisite cake ,

i would go some where really really far , where no can see what i'm doing , where no one would know me .

The place will be some what like a jungle but not a jungle .

      with waterfalls but not near any dam or river 

   with no Wifi , NO social media and no people surrounding . 

Simply dis-connecting from the world and keeping apart all my worries . I would simply enjoy "ME-TIME .  

"blowing 18 candles myself ..............."

cutting the cake , eating my favorite chocolate , taking pictures <3 

Yey

                      KINDNESS  IN  REALITY !!!

YOU HAVE A BAD MOUTH 

  YES BECAUSE I TALK FOOLISHNESS RATHER THAN GOSSIPING 

YOU HAVE TO WASH YOUR MOUTH IN HARPIC (toilet cleaner)

       YES BECAUSE I JUST MAKE STUPID JOKES RATHER THAN HURTING SOMEONE

YOU ARE A BAD GIRL 

     YES BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT PEOPLE AND THEIR EMOTIONS 

YOU WILL RUIN THE LIFE OF ANY GUY COMING TO YOUR LIFE 

     YES BECAUSE I VALUE RELATIONSHIP'S

{These were the meanest things that somebody told me in my entire life which was apparently told by one of favorite teacher for which i didn't give the reply directly , so here is it sir  '' my virtual reply '' }

 

  

        H A P P I N E S S

Apart from drugs , crime , racism , bullying , lets  go to the roots of cause ''its happiness'' 

its definitely not a destination or a fulfillment of need,  its a choice its feeling ,a decision that you ill hold your key to happiness in your own hand  

some days are bad , some are worse , some are regretful , some are confusing , the best part is that apart from being broken for while your learning and growing . 

if u have that guts to face the struggle and overcome then you are awesome cuz not everyone can do this . 

its very important as a self responsible human being to give upon people who are actually the toxins of your life , you can never make them happy, no matter how hard you try, how much you do for them , all they are gonna remember is the one thing you didn't do . they are anyway gonna hate you , so why wasting time on them ?  

LETS GIVE HATERS A SMILE :) 

                          JUDGE ME 

judge me for who I'am

judge me for what i does 

judge me for what i said 

judge me for how i talk 

judge me for how i sit 

judge me for how i smile 

judge me for my actions 

judge me for my thoughts 

           but don't judge me by somebody'swords 

                    -anaghuh

                          L I F E   I S  S T R A N G E

if i could describe 2016 in one word that would be lessons  . since it's the last chapter of this year , i thought of recalling the memories !

jan.01.2016 

#newyearblast 

i was emotionally driven , i decided not to talk or chat  with the toxin of my life .

it was annual day on 21 (i think so ) . we were all busy with shopping , hanging out  , one of my friend even got an accident from an auto while we were coming back  after shopping .

feb.01.2016 

every one was busy with the exams / board preparetion's . it was valentines month , and as always since i was single i didn't had much memories apart from asking my mingled friends about their day and eating extra food . i even thought of buying something like chocolates and give myself a treat but unfortunately i didn't had any money :D !

march.01.2016 

toxin made me cry !!! 

 

april.01.2016 

toxin made me cry !! toxin walked away from my life . i feel blessed that god made this happen finally .

may.01.2016 

yeaaay its my b'day month . special classes for 12th were to be started . i was busy collecting money for my birthday treat . i turned seventeen (im turning old) :( 

                               

                    

                           

                                           TO BE CONTINUED 

   

LESSONS LEARNED 

In those days i was really really happy .......................

school , home , special classes , hangouts and everything , sometimes i get messed up but still everything was going just like a fairy tale story. 

And then like a bomb blast everything changed in a minute , the ones who were with me for this long time , doing all that shitty things together was in-front of me as a stranger . that moment i felt like i didn't wanna go to school anymore . most of time i lye down so that i don't have to talk to anyone , my teacher's were wondering ''WHY IS SHE ALWAYS SLEEPING'' and they were all passing comments about it , one of my teacher even doubted that i have breakup with my boyfriend. . . . . .  LOL!!! but its just that it wouldn't hurt this much if it  was a breakup with my boyfriend . 

during those time when people ask me about the issue , i was tired of proving of myself right and i decided not to do so . the only thing i said to everyone was not to judge me , because i knew that we all have done mistakes and blaming each other can make it even more worse . i decided to ignore everyone and focus on myself . 

that evening when i reached my home , i made a time table , i started having a routine , slowly slowly i Realized  that i'm becoming more productive . later on i decided to delete all those social media apps from my phone , i still don't know why i did that but it made a huge difference for my mental health , i was less stressful and everything was getting better . i have got time for everything even after studying . .and after a few weeks , i got good marks in my exams and my friends was quite happy with me and everything just got better . . . . . . . . .

what i learned from this is , every bad thing happening to you has got something good in it . the struggles in your life will make you get to know yourself better, and it has the power to learn from the mistakes you've made  and to make yourself a better person . all you have to do is ''TURN YOU'R PROBLEMS TO OPPORTUNITIES'' :) 

                                            G O O D   L U C K 

             IN A DARKER NIGHT ALONE IN                                   THE ROADSIDE 

Two days before the Navratri i went to the temple to keep my books for pooja. my few books were tied in a newspaper sheet with a white paper sticked on the top to write my name . i left my home  around 7 pm and due to the winter season, night came earlier , the sky was red and blue ,i felt like i was watching a rainbow but it wasn't . the temple was around 2 kilometer far from my house . i decided to walk , a few steps away from my house i saw a lady cleaning the roadside with an really really small brook which looked like a wooden stick from far and near to the lady a man standing with a cigratte in his mouth , the smoke of his cigratte was covering the lady's face and made it kinda blur so that i couldn't see the face of that lady clearly .

after walking a mile i reached the temple usually i washed my legs and get in ..there was big line of kids and a few elders standing for keeping their books for pooja , WAITING WAITING there for around 15 minute i get in into that small room in which hundreds of books covered in the newspaper was neatly arranged in the floor ,  the wall of that small room consisted of a tube light , a few lizards and stickers of goddess . a boy in-front of me a got a sticker with a number , an old man shouted ''FIVE RUPEES" he took a coin of 5 from his pocket and gave to the man . next was  my turn , i kept my books in that table , the old man gave me a sticker with a number 236 to stick on the books . the old man shouted once again ''TEN RUPEES'' since i had enough money with me, i gave it , but i was wondering why is it ten for me and five for that boy , later i realised that , the boy had only 1 book and i had four books . after that i went inside-inside the temple and started pray !! 

After getting out from the temple everything was even more darker when i looked to the sky , it looked like a seashore , i felt like my eyes was glittering because of the darkness of the sky and cubic rays of light from the lambs of temple falling into my eyes . there was peace everywhere . i kept walking and when i reached  a hill   Area . For a moment my eyes was glittering once again with excitement when i saw the rainbows for the first time in my life . not just rainbows the reddish clouds with a sky blue tint on it . with darkness everywhere down , Sky looked magical ...